we are on a roller coaster, but not the good kind like at an amusement park; an emotional roller coaster... how did this happen, why did this happen, what are going to do, where are we going, how are we going to make it, why is this is this so hard... the questions are endless.
dave will now need to spend his time, money, and effort to apply to any and all programs that are still accepting applications for the PGY1 year...most places are done taking applicants, but some still have openings. again, this will be an exhausting process in which dave will end up doing internal medicine (hospitalized adults) or surgery; either way is will not be a very fun year for him.
i am struggling to determine how i feel: upset, afraid, sad, angry, lost, confused, let-down, scared, sick to my stomach...
this emotional roller coaster sucks and dave and i just want off. when will we know? how will we know? where do we go? where do we apply? why did this happen to us? did we chose the wrong path? what more could we have done? what happens now? what do we do? what is the next step? who will help us? so many questions and absolutely no answers from the military or the school. we are on our own to figure out our future.
The only truth i can put my finger on is that we have each other and God does have a path for us. we may not see it (at all) but this must be in His plans.
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