Mele Kalikimaka

We leave for Kauai on Christmas morning! Wahoo. That is less than 4 days away! Here is our theme song this Holiday season!

Mele Kalikimaka is the thing to say
On a bright Hawaiian Christmas Day
That's the island greeting that we send to you
From the land where palm trees sway
Here we know that Christmas will be green and bright
The sun to shine by day and all the stars at night
Mele Kalikimaka is Hawaii's way
To say "Merry Christmas to you."

Mele Kalikimaka is the thing to say
On a bright Hawaiian Christmas Day
That's the island greeting that we send to you
From the land where palm trees sway
Here we know that Christmas will be green and bright
The sun to shine by day and all the stars at night
Mele Kalikimaka is Hawaii's way
To say "Merry Christmas to you."

acceptance

-we are accepting what has happened

-we are mad/frustrated at the air force for blind siding us with this since we never new this was even a possibility: dave got a deferred (civilian) PGY1 spot which equals worst case scenario and he will need to apply to these programs, he will have to withdraw his name from the civilian residency match and basically enter a different 'match'...crappy, just crappy. More work but we have come to terms with it...God works in mysterious ways and there must be a reason for this sudden shock to our systems.

-dave will be applying to PGY1 programs across the country that are still accepting applications (similar to him applying to residency programs)

-in January time frame, dave will be busy interviewing for the PGY1 spots

-we will find out march 15th where dave 'matches' for his PGY1 (works like the residency match, but now he is applying to PGY1 programs).

-after the PGY1 year, dave will decide between applying to residency programs again or doing flight medicine with the AF...not too sure about any of that, but this PGY1 will only prepare dave to be a better doctor in the end.

-i know it seems confusing but i hope this helps to explain what has happened.

-we were hoping for answer yesterday, but i feel like we got more questions.

-Truth: God is in control and He will put us where we need to be.

feelings...

we are on a roller coaster, but not the good kind like at an amusement park; an emotional roller coaster... how did this happen, why did this happen, what are going to do, where are we going, how are we going to make it, why is this is this so hard... the questions are endless.

dave will now need to spend his time, money, and effort to apply to any and all programs that are still accepting applications for the PGY1 year...most places are done taking applicants, but some still have openings. again, this will be an exhausting process in which dave will end up doing internal medicine (hospitalized adults) or surgery; either way is will not be a very fun year for him.

i am struggling to determine how i feel: upset, afraid, sad, angry, lost, confused, let-down, scared, sick to my stomach...

this emotional roller coaster sucks and dave and i just want off. when will we know? how will we know? where do we go? where do we apply? why did this happen to us? did we chose the wrong path? what more could we have done? what happens now? what do we do? what is the next step? who will help us? so many questions and absolutely no answers from the military or the school. we are on our own to figure out our future.

The only truth i can put my finger on is that we have each other and God does have a path for us. we may not see it (at all) but this must be in His plans.

not good news:(

we just found out devastating news.... we have NO IDEA where we will be. dave now has to apply to Civilian PGY1 (Post-Graduate Year) programs. this is about the worst thing that could happen. we will post more when we know.

countdown is on!

Not sure how much sleep Dave and I are going to get in the next two days but we are only about 40 hours away from the Air Force telling us our destiny for May/June. This seems like the most exciting/stressful time in our lives. We know God has big plans for us, but sometimes it is hard to wait for them to unfold. This time, it is like we get a sneak peek into His future plans! Yay! Seems like we have been waiting a long time, but now we can countdown in hours! Woot woot!

Christmas Time Here We Come....

I decided to get tickets to the Nutcracker Ballet in Denver and get some Christmas CD's from the library to get Dave and I in the holiday spirit. The ballet was nice. The story of the Nutcracker is a little odd, but I enjoyed myself. Dave enjoyed being with me but I think he could have done without the ballet. Saturday morning we played Christmas music and did some cleaning/organizing of our apartment. I still need to watch ELF to feel like it is actually Christmas time, but we are trying. I guess, all Dave and I want for Christmas is to figure out what we will be doing for the next three years, which will hopefully happen on Dec 15, the date of the Military Match. We are also looking forward to Christmas morning, when we fly out to Kauai, Hawaii!!!!!! We are very excited but it just does not seem like Christmas time. I will keep trying to get us in the Christmas Spirit, but it may have to wait until after the 15th, and even then it may not be the most Christmas-y year for us, but it is still an exiting time and we are excited to see what God has planned for us.

Merry Christmas to us.... sunglasses for Hawaii:)



I also wanted to add these two cute pictures.... Asher is such a cute little cuddle-bug:)